What I forgot to behold?

At times I know, even the freezing January mist doesn’t give me the solace to be me. I wonder what I’ve dreamt, foreseen willingly has remained a dream. What does it took from me? What made my path unclear? Isn’t it what my cognition gone dumb? Or is it the way things have to be after you lose your heart that was not ticking inside you?

I’ve been never so this unanswered, never was a nerd as of now, I live sleeping the day and playing with the night. I never knew the life would show me such a grotesque face painted with the arrogance of abstract defiance. I fell short, counting on my ignorance; I forgot to live for me. I forgot I was selfish. I forgot I had to catch a moon that was blue!

I forgot to behold, to persuade my innocence that was inspiring me. little did i wish to realize - we are two different psyche; two poles apart.
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