I see my own million reflections!

Did I learn to be happy forgetting my happiness?
The day I realized I lost my power to decide, I’d gone blank.
Now I feel the sky like a giant mirror, in which I see my own million reflections.

I see -
me weep.
me frown.
me flying into a moving cloud, jumping down,
floating in the sea -
everything other than a smile.

I see -
my uncountable unseen expressions.
my shadow melting.
my breath whirling around me.
unsmiling lips turned to a thick dead worm.

Staring up I feel the pain of my tears evaporating.
My eyelids have gained weight.
My sky is turning to a large white paper.


I’m dwarfed into my own lazy reflection.
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